One of the gifts I've received during my 38 years of sobriety is the gift of hindsight.  When I first joined AA, I didn't know what I thought about God.  Well, I felt a lot of guilt.  That guilt kept me from having a real relationship with Him in the beginning.  But by working the steps and probably by time passing , I grew to let Him into my heart.  Little by little, He showed me how He was taking care of me.  And now I have the gift of being able to look back at all those…