Our anxiety expresses itself through doubt. And our doubt expresses itself by taking things into our own hands. Whether we say it or even consciously think it, trying to make things happen on our own says, at best, âGodâs not giving me what I want when I want it, so Iâd better make it happen myself.â And despite what seventy-five percent of Christians believe (Barna, 2005), the phrase âGod helps those who help themselvesâ does not come from the Bible.
In this season of my life, God has been confronting my tendency to live out of my doubt. Ask anyone: Iâm good at coming up with a plan, pulling things together, and making them happen. I am, to use a human compliment, resourceful. Heck, I like referring to myself as âtenacious.â And yet, in this season all my efforts have come to nothing. Instead, God says, âDepend on me. Let me handle it.â
I try every idea at my disposal, thinking one of them will work. They donât. And then something that wasnât my idea shows up and accomplishes what all my bright ideas and efforts couldnât. Again, God repeats, âDepend on me. Let me handle it.â
Sometimes we already know things are out of our hands. And yet, we wrestle with the same problem as the anxious and the self-reliantâthe failure to acknowledge that things still in Godâs hands. We see a great example of this as Jesus encounters a boy with an unclean spiritâand even moreso in the people surrounding Jesus and the boy:
And when they came to the disciples, they saw a great crowd around them, and scribes arguing with them. And immediately all the crowd, when they saw him, were greatly amazed and ran up to him and greeted him. And he asked them, âWhat are you arguing about with them?â And someone from the crowd answered him, âTeacher, I brought my son to you, for he has a spirit that makes him mute. And whenever it seizes him, it throws him down, and he foams and grinds his teeth and becomes rigid. So I asked your disciples to cast it out, and they were not able.â And he answered them, âO faithless generation, how long am I to be with you? How long am I to bear with you? Bring him to me.â And they brought the boy to him. And when the spirit saw him, immediately it convulsed the boy, and he fell on the ground and rolled about, foaming at the mouth. And Jesus asked his father, âHow long has this been happening to him?â And he said, âFrom childhood. And it has often cast him into fire and into water, to destroy him. But if you can do anything, have compassion on us and help us.â And Jesus said to him, ââIf you canâ! All things are possible for one who believes.â Immediately the father of the child cried out and said, âI believe; help my unbelief!â And when Jesus saw that a crowd came running together, he rebuked the unclean spirit, saying to it, âYou mute and deaf spirit, I command you, come out of him and never enter him again.â And after crying out and convulsing him terribly, it came out, and the boy was like a corpse, so that most of them said, âHe is dead.â But Jesus took him by the hand and lifted him up, and he arose. And when he had entered the house, his disciples asked him privately, âWhy could we not cast it out?â And he said to them, âThis kind cannot be driven out by anything but prayerâ (Mark 9:14â29).
I love the incredulousness of Jesusâ âIf you can!â here. It not only carries the sense of âWho do you think I am?â but also âWho do you think you are, in Godâs sight?â Which is borne out by Jesusâ next sentence, âAll things are possible for one who believes.â
While itâs not simply a matter of âGod helps those who help themselves,â our inability to âmakeâ Godâs will manifest might indeed be a matter of us not being in position for God to use us. Our doubt restrains Godâs ability to operate. Not that he couldnât blow past it any time he liked, as Jesus in fact does here. Nonetheless, God wants us to believe, and is willing to withhold his temporal blessings and deliverance until we do so.
Iâm not advocating a âname-it-and-claim-itâ theology here, but I am suggesting a principle of âbelieve it and youâll receive itââprovided itâs what God wanted to give you all along. Psalm 84:11b affirms this: âNo good thing does he withhold from those who walk uprightly.â There is a truth buried within the more positivistic twistings of the gospel, and itâs this: So much of Godâs will for our lives remains unclaimed, because we canât bring ourselves to believe that God would really want to do something good for us.
Thus, I suspect that the prayer and fasting the disciples lacked for this situation wasnât purely a matter of failing to press the right spiritual buttonsâlet alone âif you do this spiritual discipline more regularly, youâll be so much more effective for the kingdom.â Thereâs truth to that, but thereâs a deeper truth here: Like every spiritual discipline, prayer and fasting was a way for the disciples to humble themselves before God so that they too could see the situation properly, become acutely aware of their own fallenness, human inability, and just plain lack of trustâand acknowledge, as the boyâs father did, âI believe; help my unbelief!â
Lay down your doubt, and let Jesus help your unbelief, so that you can receive the good things he has already prepared for you.
Lay It Down Today
Letâs get more creative with todayâs passage from Mark. Read it again right now, putting yourself in the disciplesâ place. Experience the inability to heal, Jesusâ rebuke, and the curiosity/humility afterward. Then read it once more, from the perspective of the fatherâthe overwhelmedness and desperation for his son to be delivered, and the equally deep desperation to want to believe fully that Jesus could, and would, deliver his son.
Who do you identify with more right now? Spend some time giving up your doubt, and the roadblocks youâve placed to reinforce that doubt, to Jesus right now. Hand over to him those things that make you anxious or overwhelmed. Let him handle them, and ask him to keep those things out of your hands from this day forward.